Thank you all so much. Betnich, I looked up the free course, and I like the way he lays out scale practice. I can't even look at my old theory books, but I'm fine with the number system.
I love your Obama photo. I couldn't make it to DC for the Inauguration, but I drove to another American city, and had an amazing time. Went to church and on the MLK march. You can laugh at me, but I thought the march was an act of civil disobedience, and maybe I was in trouble on foreign soil. I'm Canadian, what do I know about civil rights? Then the city buses picked us up and took us for dinner. I couldn't believe the whole entire wonderfulness of it. Everyone was so kind to me. When the hotel staff found out why I was there, they couldn't DO enough. They drove me around, gave me meal gift certificates...Americans can be so kind and generous.
T-Block, you'll like this: I spent a couple of days playing only blues, and got tremendously bored. I'll keep plugging away at the entire musical spectrum, even and especially on days I think I don't "get it." Something must be growing underneath. Maybe I'm at the place plants are before they push through the soil? Best to just keep drinking in the water and bathing in sunshine until spring comes. For all we know, the most beautiful flowers may be bored to tears under the soil all winter.
A funny thing happened. As I was playing blues scales, I recited, "1, flat 3, 3..." and started vividly seeing the major scales underneath. They were "dead" to me before. Now they jumped out in colors different from the blues scale. This is a hopeful sign.
Elio, I know the number system. I have an intellectual understanding of mathematical relationships in music. It's my hands that don't seem to memorize the chords and progressions. Yet they do with blues. Absolutely, the bass line is important. I love bass lines. I worked out a new bass line to Fever, and that's loads of fun.
Yes, if I found a church where I felt at home with both the music and doctrine, I'd love to be on the worship team. As I said, traditional gospel is not the norm here. Lots of guitar-based contemporary music that doesn't appeal to me.
Berbie, I have to smile. I mostly listened to C/W when I rode in horse shows. Seasoned show horses start loping as soon as they hear the opening bars to Ring of Fire. I do a mean Patsy Cline.
There seem to be old voices from my past in my mind. I need to replace them with Christ's voice and my own adult wisdom. I'm so glad I posted here. I've been feeling really alone in this journey. Part of it is feeling I've wasted time I could have spent learning to play by ear.
Thanks so much, my new friends. I went through a similar crisis with my voice. Years ago, I ruptured a vocal chord. The journey to creating a new voice that never gets sore and is my reliable friend has been incredibly worthwhile. At the time, I experienced similar emotional pain. But I asked questions and searched and prayed until God sent me exactly the right teachers. I even moved across the country to be with them. When my voice was at its peak, I had cancer surgery that cut my "singing muscles" in half. I had to rebuild all over again. Now I understand mine and others' voices intimately. It was a gift.
This seems to be the start of the same process with piano. All the best to every one of you, my new friends!