I started directing when I was 16 years old, and my former pastor appointed me to this position.. I still had doubt about directing a choir with no order or displicine, so I decided to take the position.. Being 16 years old with a helpless background about music, I tried my best.. I gradually kept getting complimented with good job, great job, and etc. It was always great compliment, but I always was upset because I felt that I was a horrible choir director... Sometimes I just want the honest truth from people of how horrible I am.. It is so visa versa because happy compliment get you all happy and stuff; after all, it was getting me all upset.. Later on in the years, I thought my musician was best playing piano ever, but I thought wrong.. He always play in the same key; it always be in bass clef.. Whenever we do a fast song, it is in bass clef when it supposed to be in treble clef. I have an excellent drummer.. The only ability I have as a choir director is rymthm, beat, and playing with voices!! My hands are still a little off, and it seems that choir understand the signals! But it seems that I am missing something? How can I get better at what I like? Do I need to learn about notes?? Do I need to improve my hand signals?? Because I do not have many, I know there is more to directing?? Do i need a new musician?? Maybe I can improve?? Any information at the moment will be helpful for me!! Please all the choir directors, musicians, drummers!! What should I do???