Personally i know exactly where you are coming from. One of the things pastor's and chuch people forget is that they are not God, and that we all have a life outside the church. Too many times we are expected to be in the church everytime the church doors open and now that is not possible. I know some people who stay in church and there personal life is a mess and their Pastor conrtols all of their movements, and it makes me wonder if they are in a church or cult. If it is such a big deal then they need to learn to play the organ or whatever instrument is there.I have learned not to worry what no one says, because when you have to priotize your life and also when you stand before God your haters will not answer for you. Unfortuantely in the black church there is always drama and you simply have to learn to take everything with a grain of salt. Musicians have it tough. You have to learn the songs and that takes a lot of time and then teach it to the choir that also takes time and patience and alot of time in church you get not pay just pain. We all have to remember that God judges our heart and not how many times we are up in church. Remember the parable of the 'Pharasee and the publican'. i was called out several times by my Pastor, and what i did was start praying for the pastor. and God fixed the Pastor wherein they had to come back and apologize to me. Remember God has no respect of persons and that he doesnot care about a title.
