appreciate you all on the advice
You are welcome and WELCOME TO LGM!
One more VERY IMPORTANT piece of advice...
"If you can say it you can play it." This is a golden rule in music and life. It is speaking things into existence.
If you can count aloud a riff/pattern/phrase/melody in proper time then you can play it in time. So sing the idea out with all the tonalities that are in your head then apply it slowly to the drum kit finding and matching the tonalities. Make sure your tones match the melody tones of the song you are applying the fill at the time.
If you stutter or loose you breath saying/singing it then you will also loose your breath/balance playing it. This is a fact I have proven through my past students. Don't cause the music to "hyper-ventilate" place each nnote/hit of the pattern in it's own proper space. if you crowd or rush of even slow down inconsistantly or out-of-context then it will cause the song to fall apart because the drums are the heartbeat.