I NEED SOME ADVICE!!!!!!

[DaTreesDrummer18]

OK I HAVE BEEN APART OF MY MINISTRY IN PHILLY FOR ABOUT 10 YEARS NOW, AND I HAVE REALLY BEEN GOING THROUGH IT LATELY, I HAVE NOT BEEN TO CHURCH IN ABOUT 2 MONTHS NOW, REASONS ARE OUR CHRUCH FELL APART LITERALLY, THERE WAS TIME WEN OUR PASTOR THOUGHT ABOUT CLOSING US DOWN FOR GOOD. I WAS THE MINISTER OF MUSIC AT THIS CHURCH AND I WAS THE PASTORS ADJUTANT, I ALSO PLAYED THE DRUMS. MIND YOU WE NEVER HAD A KEYBOARDIST/ORGANIST/BASSIST, OR ANYTHING OF THE NATURE SINCE IVE BEEN THERE, WE REALLY NEVA HAD A REAL CHOIR, OR A PRAISE AND WORSHIP TEAM. NOW I CAN SIDE WITH MY PASTOR, WE CANT REACH OUT TO PEOPLE IF OUR HOME ISNT RIGHT AND IT WASNT, AND I STARTED TO BLAME MYSELF, BECAUSE THOUGHT AT HEART I WAS WITH THE CHURCH BUT MIND AND SPIRIT I WAS NOT. NOW GOD IS DEALING WITH ME IN A LOT WAYS AND I WANT TO CHANGE AS A PERSON, ALSO AS MUSICIAN AND A HELP TO MY CHURCH. WHAT SHOULD I DO?

[momuzik]

I'm not sure if I understand:

1. ..."AND I HAVE REALLY BEEN GOING THROUGH IT LATELY, I HAVE NOT BEEN TO CHURCH IN ABOUT 2 MONTHS NOW." ... What are you going through that's keeping you from going to church?

2. ..."OUR CHRUCH FELL APART LITERALLY, THERE WAS TIME WEN OUR PASTOR THOUGHT ABOUT CLOSING US DOWN FOR GOOD"...What do you mean by "church falling apart"? Did you all loose all your members?, or were people just out of control?

2. "WE REALLY NEVA HAD A REAL CHOIR, OR A PRAISE AND WORSHIP TEAM. NOW I CAN SIDE WITH MY PASTOR," ... How does a choir/ praise team relate to "siding with your pastor?"

3. "WE CANT REACH OUT TO PEOPLE IF OUR HOME ISNT RIGHT AND IT WASNT, AND I STARTED TO BLAME MYSELF" ... Why would you blame yourself for the church falling apart?

[chevonee]

The only thing that you can do is get before God and cry out. God is the only one who knows the complete details of what you're going through. He will lead and guide you to a peacefull conclusion.

I was there before our church got on the map, so to speak. I played from my heart and not for money. I was there when I felt like it and when I didn't. But yet when someone else came along with a slightly better sound and a high price tag...I was the one on the outside looking in. So I know what its like to feel confused and hurt by the direction that a church is going in. THe only thing that I did was seek God one on one. He directed me on what and where I needed to go and now I am happy and back where I belong...BEHIND A KEYBOARD at church. Feel free to PM me, if I can be of any help to you. In the meantime....PRAY, PRAY, PRAy and don't quit playing because GOd did not give you that gift for nothing.

[SisterT]

I need clarification too. Could you be a little clearer on what you are talking about.

Also, please don't type in ALL-CAPS. It makes it hard for us to read. Thank you.