I do feel ya sabian. We do have to master our gift through practice and education.
I learned to play the keyboard/piano when I was yet a child in the world. I became an average musician, I could read music, slowly, but I could read. I had a good ear and could finger most songs out. My bigest mistake was focusing on buying sheet music of popular music and learning from that. I should have continued my studies, rather than thinking it was to boring and tedeous. I later played in the Navy on my ships band and enjoyed just playing music again. I loved just the music.
After being born again I was astounded of what I was able to do while playing for church during praise and worship. I told folk I didn't know HOW I did that run but it just happened. I was later told it was God's annointing. True annointing can even EDUCATE in some ways. I have continued discovering NEW runs, rifs, chords, progressions.. you name it. I have retained the things that I have discovered while playing in God's service. However, I want to go back to school and posibly make Music one of my majors other than engineering and art. I have procrastinated at the fear of going back to school and made excuse after excuse. I'm 35 years old and God as my witness I will do these things before I reach 40